Please Don't Go©

The thought of you leaving
Only opens up crack holes deep
It only makes me pop the pills on 3
Staggering mentally
Downhill of idiocrasies
Please, please don’t go
Don’t you see how much I love you?

I’ve loved you more than myself
I’ve loved you from midnight to midday
I’ve loved you the moment
You fucked me in my bed
My love is priceless
Yet death is the lines we walk

Baby please don’t go
Because these chains I don’t wanna break
This heart I don’t wanna ache
These scars are too permanent
For someone else to bare

So bare with me
Throughout my flaws and fears
With my 10 feet baggage
Dragging along the stairs

With your love
Help me to cure this disease
Because only you can explore
This heart on repeat

While I scream “please don’t go”
You storm out the door
To seek a show
Now our neighbours
Justify their assumption
That we are vagabonds
That fights war and tribulation

You echoed in the street
Your forbidden love for me
The nights you’ve cheated
Somehow that didn’t affected me
Because we are one and the same
In the cheating department

So I begged you to stay
But the more I scream in different octaves
The faster you ran away
From this miserable home
That you desperately wanna break


Written and copyright by: Grace Aitcheson

My Diary©

My mind is "My Diary"

Where all thoughts, imaginations,
actions are kept locked away

I rewrite all my secrets to my mind

Pouring out my entire soul,

Because it’s the only one I know will keep them

Even when the world doesn't understands

I can sit with my diary

We analyze life together, the world as it is!

We make decisions

My diary

My possession

My obsession 

When I’ve been abandoned,
thrown away, scared, afraid

I can count on my dairy, to keep me safe

It’s my solace….My history

My memories… My companion

The one that hurts when I hurt

Knows when I’m about to cry

When I morph

Being happy, sad 

And even when I’m being a bad, bad girl

My diary celebrates with me

Experience life with me

Its like my skin, it’s always with me

When I’m being good, it encourages me to conquer

Cheering me to don't stop, aim high 

When my mood is at a high

I can choose what chapter of my diary to read

I skip; uproot deep dark memories just to fit any occasion

And even if some secrets are being faded,
forgotten my diary present itself

I'm wrapped around my diary

I crave every inch

Especially when I’m in lusting mood

Because only my dairy can tell you

When that sweet nectar starts to run

Get high, wanting every inch of a human being

My dairy can tell you my true feelings

When I’m lost for words

When I’m shy

And if for any reason someone taps in

They will see things just the way they are

No pretense 

My Afflicter©

His words penetrated my body

Causing bruises to split open yet again

Blood gushing like knife to a neck

he rants, walking madly throughout the house

Cursing his Jamaican language


The more I became numb

The more he got turned on

He grabs my throat, demanding me to speak

Or forever hold my piece

He started kissing me intensely

Even that hurt immensely

The way his tongue

Made love to my wounded body

Like paint to canvases


But that hatred love

That you can feel down to the core

For his bitter ego he wanted more


He wanted more of what I couldn't give

He battered my face mentally

Cuz he’s the only one who causes affliction

To the inflicted

Not realizing he’s conflicted

From past fears eating him out


Deciphering my next move, but he's one step ahead

When it's all said and done

I might be the one end up dead


I'm stuck with this never ending affliction

That is manipulated by mysteries

We marinated in each others sadness

Then made love without eagerness

We are the afflicter and the afflicted

Rough Sex©

It’s on tonight

We gonna have this crazy love


First we gotta get the lime light

Candle light

So I can watch your body doing me right

You got the whip

because I missed the beatings

My ass is ready

Can you handle this position?



Baby work me good

Till the sun comes up

I don't mind

If my pussy gets bruised up...

You're teasing me

Because you know it drives me crazy...

I grab your neck

Let you u know I ain't playing...



It’s on tonight

We gonna have this crazy love



Finger fucking

Pussy eating positions

Bites against cheeks

Scratches on back

Like we having a dog fight

I worked your body

Baby you look like a bitch

And I love that



You took control

Tie me against the bed

Ass in the air

I felt the pain

The pleasure was even more excruciating

I flex my muscles

Make you cum quicker

I gotta do something to weaken your demeanor

I'm vindictive even in the sack

I gotta get you where I want to



It’s on tonight

We gonna have this crazy love



Faced between my legs

You licked my pussy in return

That's your defense

Now I'm the bitch and you love that

Have me screaming and moaning

Grinding on your face

Nectar flowing from the bed to the floor

When I'm about to explode

You stick your dick in

Kissed my back

Making me scream on top of my lungs



Fuck the neighbours

I bet they are jealous too

The more you throb

The more louder my screams get

In a distance we hear the cop car

I explode just before they come to get us

They urgently called us down

Eager to rescue the damage goods

We both open the door and said sir 'the rough sex was good'

Distance©

Loving you from a distance is fine with me
having you near will cause a catastrophe
I detest the way your scent is crawling inside of me
Pulsating through my skin


I'm moved by your essence
Your wittiness
mixed with the jealousy you portrayed
But yet distance is imperative


Oh how I need you here
My presence obliges
But yet this temporary feeling
Epitomizes
Just the way you lure me in
Like a venom
That purges inside my heart
death is near
But you keep me a live


Distance
My humble friend
But my deceitful enemy


I ache to love you from a distance
because having you close causes a rupture
A rupture
From my toes to my thighs
From my thighs to my pussy
From my pussy to my brain


You see this distance
Is holding us back
But pushes us forward
To relinquish this fear
Of loving and hating
Of the mind
The universe despise us
Yet believes in us


I'm loving you from a distance
Down to the core
Like antidote
I don't wanna be release from
Like a drug
I don't wanna relapse from


This distance is killing me
While you're surviving
I'm suffocating
While you're still breathing


This treacherous space
Between here and there
Forces to close
But this distance
Restricts us
Enabling us to leap
In existing bodies
This distance…..

Free Flow©

Sitting here in this chair
with my intuitive mind
suppressing my undying devotion
luring thoughts

It's devastating to want you near
but you’re so far
unaware
slighted by me
reasons unknown

You slaughtered me
with your reasons
of incompatibility
shrewdness

I sheepishly observe
when you’re around
wanting to be trapped
in your mind
oh my muse
you invade my privacy
forcing my inner thoughts
to be raped
just by you

Like a groupie
I manifest deep feelings
but your overtures
is killing me deeply
slowly
despising myself
feeling like the culprit
but you’ll always remain
my Muse

In My Skin©

I’m unique in my own skin
even when the rivals come to war
I stay strong
believing in
my own skin

They despise my big lips
that protrudes
words of wisdom
that forms an immaculate smile

My freckles
irritates their senses
blinding their own features
because they are defined
by society’s expectations

My confidence
scatter their thoughts
oblivious
because their own skin is tattered…torn
by unrelenting miseries
that plague their inner thoughts

My skin
relates to me
confides with me
hurts when I hurt
my skin
oh how I adore
my wild
but sensitive skin…

His Affair..My Enjoyment©

There he goes

Sneaking his whipped ass out of my bed

He climbed out slowly

Knowing not to disturb me

He tip toed into the bathroom

Taking up every trail of his clothing

I smile evidently

My bed looking rugged

Watched him sneak out the door

So that he can jump into hers

Rubbing my scent in her bed

Climbing in at 4am

So the sunlight can shine upon their faces

Hiding the discretions that he pleads he fears



The lies that scroll through those doors

Are like the thief in the night

That comes unknowingly and steals a prized possession

But a oblivious wife

That honours her vows

And a husband who

Make his lies the truth



John “where were you”

“Clubbing with the boys honey”

A lie he told many times before

With that guilty look on his bland face

Hmm the “boys”

She must have wondered

If he’s fucking one of the boys



The wife he so cherished

Became the wife he hurt the most

The love of his life

His honour

But something was lacking there

He professed how much he loves her

BUT not enough to fuck someone else



He seeks pleasure in my pussy

I seek pleasure from his dick

Am I wrong because he wears an evil wedding band?

That he thinks he cherish?

No! But he speaks to my body

Like no one else can



I don’t love him

I love his body

His eyes

The way he plays those records on my body

Touching every string

Igniting every cell in my body

The way he fucks me there

BUT; I don’t love him

I don’t respect him

How can I when he doesn’t respect his home

I only seek pleasure from what he gives

My Temporary Fix©

You ravage my space

Penetrating my walls

With reasons obscure


Your intentions

Were clearly planned out

Except I was oblivious


I wrap my legs around your mind

Thinking you're so fine

Fumbled with thoughts

Wondering are you gonna be mine


My chest hurt

Pulse raised

My thoughts were engrossed

I got numb

In a good way

I was speechless


I was dumb

Literally

When you're around

Afraid to relinquish my thoughts

Afraid I'd made a mistake

I thought I was getting sick

But the feeling was too real

And once familiar


My body responded to yours

Feigning for your every touch

The way you ease in and out my pussy

Igniting my soul

Veins popping

Loosing control


Fuck! It was temporary

Fuck you

For fucking me so endlessly

Fuck you

For your lack of vulnerability

Fuck you

For fucking up my meds vigorously

Fuck me

For my weakness


But this temporary fix

Was pseudo

In your eyes

But not in mind

Fuck this temporary fix....

Free Flow Mind@

You don't know what you've done to me
You inconspicuous peasant
You've ripped out a part of my soul
that cannot be replaced


You're forever tattooed in my mind
the more I scrape you from my chest
the more you grow like a flower
blooming in my garden


Your face remain a constant imagery
captivating by memories
I wish it wasn't so beautiful
your eyes piercing the depth of my being
your smile igniting my thoughts


I can't fathom this love
It drives me insane
sometimes I can't stand
that I want you
but you sabotage this body
making it yours to keep


I need to erase you from my thoughts
you incoherent bastard
you've done enough damage
to burn this empty inconsistent soul


I wanna break free from loving you
free from weeping at nights
free from the venoms of your soul
so I can love again
so today
I will face you, my fears
yet again for the
200th day
7 hours
6 minutes
and 20 seconds